It''s not about him. Not anymore. It IS and will always about you.

I said that I remembered him somehow.

But it's not because I still have any feeling on him. It's just, the pain that you've made me suffer recently, that what makes me remember him again.

Because I thought, with you, I would never felt the pain that I have suffered for more than 1 year. And when I felt it again, it was a shock for my system. A system that has been used to the happiness, the euforia when I met you. A system that has been forgot bout how pain feels like.

And so the shock began, it reacts with the memories about him that left. Memories about him, her, my junior high school, his basketball club, his class, my class, and the pain that he made. So my body can reacts the way it has to. And since what my system came up with is my memories bout him, I remember him.

The same pain, the same feeling about the pain, different person who make me suffer that uneasy feeling once more.