Have you ever thinking of goodbye? Separation? A long one? With the loved one?

For me, honestly, I never think about some kind of Long Distance Relationship. I used to not believe in it, in fact. I used to think that LDR is some kind of ridiculous. I mean, how can two person love each other but not being able to see each other everyday? That's like, insane. But, as I grow up, mature, be and commit in a  mature relationship, I start to see that LDR is one of the options I could possibly be in at any time as my boyfriend is a lot older than me and he is already getting into the real world, real job, so yeah, I can't continue on being unrealistic.

One year, is like a loooooooong time for a LDR-newbie like me. I get scared as hell. I cried a lot of time and still want to cry some of the time right now. I just....so afraid of so many things. It's not like I don't believe in my boyfriend, I love him and I believe in him 100%. It's just, my last relationship is just suck and didn't work and kinda traumatize. I just scared that it might be not working too this time. It's like, you know, gambling on, hanging on, keeping your hope on something you have bloody-hell-no-idea at all. I watched all of my friends' LDR and watched them failing..one by one...only few survived...it is enough to give you this scary picture of LDR.

It's only a few weeks left before he goes to the city he is placed for an one-year-ahead-internship. So my life these days, in my semester break holiday, just focusing on spending as much time as possible with him. As much fun as it is possible too.

Wish me luck, xoxo

I met him on a sunny day in September. Well, not met 'met'. It was more like he bbm-ed me, we dealt on a meet up in campus, and before I knew what everything was, it just happened. He is 4 years older, a senior in my campus, and of course, he is already a doctor now. When I was met him, he was on his final year of co-assistant, on his way of final graduation and taking the Ujian Kompetensi Dokter Indonesia (Indonesian Doctors Competency Exam). 

A story behind that is much more complicated. Or...sweet? I don't know, you tell me, haha. 

SO, he told me that he saw me in this welcoming party of a catholic peer group in my campus. I was a freshmen. Still a really really clueless girl in campus, in that group, did not know anyone. That welcoming party, anyway, was held by me and my friends from the same year. It's like the tradition in that group that the youngest got to be the ones that hold the wp. So, I, honestly, really didn't see him on that wp. Hahahaha. I was busy making the welcoming party worked. Then, after he saw me, he asked his friend to go after my blackberry pin. His friend got it, he added it, a year later he sent that bbm on one day in September, we met, end of story. Lol.

He........is just like God's answer to my prayer.

Yes, I had been praying for months asking for a..mate. Not boyfriend, not husband, a mate. One that God's given, God's planned, God's made for me. Yap, just for me. 

He is like no other. Kind, caring, intelligent, honest, wise, patient (going with me usually is nerve-wrecking so having this is an extra benefit), so brother-ish (you know, I kinda having an obsession of having an older brother), loving, and handsome (this I count as a bonus from God, not the main point that I concern).

So, yea, I love him. He is just like God's Greatest Blessing in my life.