♥,
-JCO-

Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I say is now it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
Yeah yeah

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale


Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."

"He who tries to forget a woman, never loved her. "

It is 2 days before Valentine Day. SO WHAT? I dont' really have any special plan for that day. I don't EVEN CARE about it. For me, it is just a day. What's so special about it? 
Urgh.

Maybe it will end up like my other-valentine day. Nothing special. Just me being lonely and ignored. Even now. You may think I have a boyfriend. But, oh please, he is not really into this kind of bullshit thing. I won't give much hope to him. Or I will end up in disappointment..

I wanna cry if I think 'bout that.
The more I think about it the more I hurt.
And so I wanna cry much louder.
But I can't just rip it out of my head. I can't just get it away from my mind.

But, anyway, big big big thanks to my BESTFRIEND, Ekky.
For telling me the truth I have been doomed for over than 2 years.
For revealing the true face of her, the girl I used to know as my BESTFRIEND, it turns out that she's just as not worth as a BITCH.
Oh my God, sorry for my language.
Maybe It IS the right thing if he wasn't telling me in the first place.
Because this is what I would react. Freak Out.
Maybe I would slap them.
Yeah.
Humiliated them in front of the public. It would be satisfied enough.

But, no. That's not who I am used to be. Who I am used to be is a kind-hearted-brilliant-brained-innocent-hearted girl. That's not what I would do. I would be just quiet.
Not like now which I can freak out relative easily.
What's wrong with me now?
It's like 3 years experience of being INVISIBLE and of being DOOMED has forced me to change, to survive more. That nothing's gonna happen unless we do something by our own.

I think, I like "the new me" a lot better. :1
But it just make me more and more hard of letting my past go.
Since I think I have a bit of revenge in it.
Just think about it can hurt me badly.

Oh
How 'bout a round of applause?
Yeah
Standin ovation
Ohwoah Yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standin' outside my house
Tryin' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please
Just cut it out

And baby when I know,

But you put on quite a show.
Really had me goin'
But now it's time to go,
Curtain's finally closin'.
That was quite a show.
Very entertainin'.
But it's over now.
Go on and take a bow.

Grab your clothes and get gone.
You better hurry up,
Before the sprinklers come on.
Talkin 'bout,
'Girl I love you, you're the one.'
This just looks like a rerun.
Please.
What else is on?

And don't tell me you're sorry,
Cause you're not.
Baby when I know,
You're only sorry you got caught.
Really had me goin'
Curtain's finally closin'.
That was quite a show.
Very entertainin'.
But it's over now.
Go on and take a bow.

And the award for the best lie goes to you!
Let's hear your speech.

How 'bout a round of applause?
Standin' ovation

But you put on quite a show.
Really had me goin'
But now it's time to go,
Curtain's finally closin'.
That was quite a show.
Very entertainin'.

*) Yeah. It's all over now. HE should take a bow to me NOW.

Aku berusaha untuk melupakan. Menjauhkan. Berbalik arah. Membuang muka. Mengubur. Menghapus. Melenyapkan. Menghanguskan.
Tapi tak ada satupun yang berhasil. Masa lalu itu tetap datang mendekat.

Bahkan mereka datang satu persatu. S.A.T.U. P.E.R.S.A.T.U
Setelah aku bertemu teman lamaku, Ekky, di Gereja kemarin Minggu, sore kemarin di depan GO, aku bertemu Aldiano Kurniawan, adik kelasku waktu smp, anak basket. Kenal aku karena aku pacar Ayub dulu.
hhhhh-

Kenapa hidupku selalu tentang masa lalu?