Sometimes, fate is being so RUDE and HARD on me. Being?....or Playing?... I don't care. I don't even understand both of it. They're all just playing with my heart. Well, well, well.I remember it very very clearly if one year ago, it was me who had been desperately searching for my PAST. But NOW, when I decided to start letting all of my...
Insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving of oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless (whether in a rational or an irrational manner). A person who is insecure lacks confidence in their own value and capability, lacks trust in themselves or others, or has fears that a present positive state is temporary and will let...
5 bulan. Wow. Aku sendiri nggak pernah nyangka bisa bertahan selama ini. Nggak pernah aku berandai-andai aku bisa sampai angka 5 ini. Dulu waktu masih mau 3 bulan, aku uda mau putus. Bahkan bulan selanjutnya kata putus itu nggak pernah lepas dari bayang-bayang. Udah berkali-kali aku menyiapkan hatiku kalo-kalo aku beneran putus. Ternyata aku bertahan. Sekarang apa? Udah kaya gini terus apa? Well, aku...
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GREAT. I end my day today with another almost-break-up story. Just...great. I cried. A lot. I can feel my eyes is still swollen. This is not the first story actually. I have been through this kinda story for like..several times. But still, I can't get used to it. I will always cry when he says break up. I will always unable to breathe....
I am in my rebellion phase right now. I have been feeling real upset since Saturday night. I hate Mommy, Daddy, and Ardel. Actually, it is not all their mistake. It is me who has been in my bad mood along day. I keep feeling jealous of my sister, tortured, grumpy, and uncomfortable of being around them. I don't talk to my Mom,...
Feel familiar ? Yeah. Welcome to New York's Upper East side...This Manhattan Elite's groupie has made me fallen in love. Maybe it's a little too late to talk about this since there's already many new titles of TV series. Says, 90210, Glee... but GG has its own place in my heart. Believe me, I love all of them, they always have they own...
Just changed my template, my background, my blog look ! Loooooove it ! ♥ Just the way I like it, just the way I want it, just the way I am. Still haven't done with the banner and the etceteras yet but it is on its progress. A bunch of thanks to thecutestblogontheblock.comthat has given me such a biiiiig lessons as a beginner...
Here is just another mellow post.The last three days, me is that melancholic girl once again. Which what all she can be done are just listen to every mellow musics, create many mellow posts, and other mellow-related things. I really hate that side of me. Lonely, pathetic, and self-concerned. Just like I was before, one and a half years ago. I do not...
Semua memang terlihat membaik setelah hari2 kemarin. Luarnya. Tidak dengan dalamnya. Justru semakin memburuk, memburuk, dan memburuk. Kamu memang bilang kamu baik2 saja, tapi aku tahu, kamu sedang mengalami kesusahan yang teramat sangat, yang aku tak bisa melakukan apapun untuk merubahnya. Akhir2 ini, kamu membiasakan diri tersenyum di depanku. Setelah kamu bilang kamu akan mengalah saja. Tolong, sudahi. Aku tidak tahan terus2an melihatmu...
Aku bangun pagi ini dan langsung menangis. Aku banyak sekali menangis. Setelah tadi malam aku tertidur setelah capek menangis semalaman, aku tidak menyangka bahwa aku masih bisa mengeluarkan air mata. Mataku sudah bengkak nggak karuan. Untung saja, Mama, Papa, atau Natra nggak ada yang tanya kenapa. Aku nggak sanggup jawab kenapa. Mengingat, membayangkan saja, air mataku sudah keluar lagi. Aku nggak kuat. Tadi...
Hampir putus. Lagi. Yah, hampir. Jadi aku tidak putus. Tidak. Aku juga tidak mau. Sama sekali tidak. Memikirkannya saja, membayangkannya, membuat aku benar2 menangis kemarin malam. Jadi aku sama sekali nggak akan sanggup kalo misal kejadian beneran. Kehilanganmu..Bukan lagi soal nggak ada yang antar-jemput.Bukan lagi soal nggak ada lagi yang sms tiap pagi, sore, malem.Bukan lagi soal nggak ada yang bisa dicurhatin.Bukan lagi...
Hari ini nggak tau kenapa bete berat. Parah. Agassi jadi kena marah. Maaf ya. Bukan sama Vica. Nggak kok. Lagi nggak ada masalah. Ada sih. Tapi itu kemarin, dan kuputuskan kalo masalah itu udah selesai. Sama Papa Mama juga nggak. Nggak tau deh. Tiba2 bete. Mungkin efek dari badanku yang lagi capek. Jadi bawaannya suntuk terus. Lagi2 kelasku yang jadi sasaran. Aku tiba2...
