Sudah lama aku tau kalo banyak sistem di Indonesia itu yang bobrok. Bahkan sistem paling krusial di kehidupan negara itu, sistem pendidikan. Yah, sudah berita lama sih kalau sistem ini, seperti sistem-sistem lain di Indonesia, sama jeleknya. Apalagi, instansi milik pemerintah, uh, nggak karuan deh ngawurnya. Tapi, baru kali ini saya benar2 menyaksikan serta mengalaminya, langsung, di sekolah saya sendiri. Ternyata, guru2 yang mengandalkan...
I think I have a disorder. And... I don't even know if this is hardly a disorder or not. Well, I..have this kind of thing which is..always getting obsessed with everything I like, and this work on something imaginary, like, manga, novel, and, the newest kind of thing that get me obsessed, a tv-series. As you can see, this, happens to me always,...
This post is dedicated to and inspired by my lovely friend and desk-mate, Rizky Astari Rahmania, who seems like she can't even live after her break up with her boyfriend. She kind of has made everything up in her life, to be lived by her and her boyfriend, like, she sees everything in her future with her boyfriend in it, and, voila, life...
Today was the first day of the final term examination. Math subject, and I don't think I was doing a great job back then. Waktu satu setengah jam untuk mengerjakan 30 soal, 25 pilihan ganda, 5 uraian, dengan soal integral yang memusingkan otak dan ribet, yang panjang dan nggak bisa selesai hanya dalam waktu 3 menit.Yeah, it was pretty frustrating. But, the more...
I have stressed enough not to getting into something like this. AGAIN. The same thing for like, the many times. Well, actually, I am confused as well. I don't know why I still have spaces and times to be bothered by stuffs like that. I mean, hello, it's not the most important thing right now, with me, in the senior year. There are still like...
I'M STRESSED OUT. HELP! Like, REALLY. As the entrance tests of university comes closer, my mind gets more urrrgh. I don't even know how to describe this condition with an exact term of words. The most thing I know that I am scared. Scared of not being accepted in the medical university of Indonesia University. Medical Faculty. University of Indonesia. That's my dream. My...
Last night I heard my own heart beating Sounded like footsteps on my stairs Six months gone and I'm still reaching Even though I know you're not there I was playing back a thousand memories baby Thinkin bout everything we've been through Maybe I've been going back too much lately When time stood still and I had you Come back come back come...
Seems like it has been ages since the last time I posted something. And I never thought that my life would be this so much changing. Family, friends, life. Dad, mom, sister, brother. When I look back to a couple months ago, seems like my only problem is my relationship with vica. But now, everything is problem too. And my house feels like...
I am not the kind of girl Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion But you are not the kind of boy Who should be marrying the wrong girl I sneak in and see your friends, and her snotty little family All dressed in pastel And she is yelling at a bridesmaid, somewhere back inside a room Wearing a...
“……….. Relentless, she continues, ‘Not too long after we got married, my husband had a dream. In his dream, he was traveling on a dark ocean, alone in a boat at night. The darkness seemed never-ending. And suddenly he saw something. It was the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen. He saw a soft light coming from what seemed to be an infinite...
Ini sulit.Ini berat.Dan aku tidak akan memaksakan diriku sendiri. I may not forgive you for the rest of my life.For what you have done.But there's one unavoidable truth that: you.are.my.mother.For it is in the past, present, and the future. You are, still, and always my mother.And since you are my mother, I love you, with all of my heart, even in your worst...
If you ever think that the broken heart is the worst part of your life,Believe me,You don't even got the half of it Aku tidak pernah membayangkan semua ini, tentu saja. Siapa anak yang mau membayangkan kedua orang tua nya bercerai? Memikirkannya saja tidak. Dan aku, sekarang, sedang menghadapi mimpi buruk ini, yang bagaimana pun aku mencoba bangun, aku tak akan terbangun. Bagian...
Yes.This is my new interest. :3This brand-new-tv-series is told about a team of surgeon, the top one-the alpha team, on the only trauma hospital in Miami. Well, I've never seen any doctor-themed-tv-series before, so maybe I'm not in the right place to give any comparison with other doctor-themed-tv-series. Why I loved it? Because it tells about doctor's routine, doctor's life. A kind of...
R.I.P Lolo Lulu 22nd August 2010 22nd August 2010 25th August 2010 28th August 2010 R.I.P Lolo Lulu 22nd August 2010 22nd August 2010 25th August 2010 28th August 2010 ...
I promised I'll show you the picture of my new kids, Lolo and Lulu.. :) And this, This also, Don't get bored yet, SUPER-CUTE, eh? >.< Lolo&Lulubought: 22 August 2010 ...
I have a new..err..what I should say..pets? Err..nope..It's definitely more than that for me. Best friends, yeah, I do think so. :D So, I bought these new best friends of me yesterday. It's a couple of fish, a couple of gold-red-koki fish. I named them, Lolo and Lulu. Hehe. Well, unfortunately, I can't show the photo yet. I don't have much time these...
Dan aku mulai merasa jenuh dengan segala hal ini Aku muak Aku lelah Aku ingin berhenti Tolong! Sudahi ini! Tolong Aku muak dengan segala penjelasan itu Sudah cukup Lebih dari cukup Sudahi ini Sekarang. ...
Tak mau lagi aku percaya Pada semua kasih sayangmu Tak mau lagi aku tersentuh Pada semua pengakuanmu # Kamu takkan mengerti rasa sakit ini Kebohongan dari mulut manismu Reff: Pergilah kau Pergi dari hidupku Bawalah semua rasa bersalahmu Pergilah kau Pergi dari hidupku Bawalah rahasiamu yang tak ingin kutahui Tak mau lagi aku terjerat Pada semua janji-janjimu Tak mau lagi aku terpaut Pada...
KenapaSetelah sekian lama, 3 tahun, aku masih punya keinginan itu ?KenapaBahkan aku sendiri merasa menjadi orang terjahat sedunia ?KenapaAku mengklasifikasikannya sebagai kebutuhanku ?.... Meskipun bukan kebutuhanku yang mendasar, aku terganggu. Kenapa, sesudah selama ini, sesudah aku melibatkan banyak orang lain dalam kehidupanku, sebanyak ini, hatiku, pikiranku, dan semuanya hanya akan, tetap, selalu kembali kepada dia. Aku benci akan diriku sendiri. Aku merasa menjadi orang terjahat...
In the heat of the fight I walked awayIgnoring words that you were saying trying to make me stayI said this time I’ve had enoughAnd you’ve called a hundred times but I’m not picking up Cause I’m so mad I might tell you that it’s overBut if you look a little closer I said leave but all I really want is youTo stand...
"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have." -Unknown#TLS "Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have." -Unknown#TLS ...
"Life is full of risks anyway. Why not take them?" -Lindsay Lohan-This was taken from here. Give it a visit! :) ...
Yah, saya akui, saya memang sangat tidak dewasa, tadi siang, maupun malam ini. Tadi siang, dengan tidak rasionalnya, saya pergi ketika melihat kejadian itu. Tapi, apa masih perlu alasan rasional saat apa yang kamu lihat juga sama sekali tidak rasional dan membuat pikiranmu menjadi tak rasional pula? Dan malam ini, dengan membabi-buta saya curhat di tempat umum (baca: twitter, dan, blog ini). Ha...
"The truth is always the rightest thing to tell, no matter how hard it is"#TLS "The truth is always the rightest thing to tell, no matter how hard it is"#TLS ...
Yes. I do love that white-framed-glasses-short-haircut-ted-a-170-cm-height-Leo guy. Undoubtedly. :3 ...
I am mad and felt bad enough to be able to write these. Just need some place to blabber around. I was upset already this evening. By the chaos my brother made at my house. about his-lost-SKUHN-which-at-last-is-not-lost. It was very upsetting, very unpleasant, very depressing. "Kenapa dia nggak bisa bertanggung jawab sama sekali sih sama hidupnya sendiri? Dia lho cowo! Masa dia minta orang...
"There's only one thing I want to change about you... your last name..."-Unknown #TLS ...
"What is a valid reason for someone to love someone else? Since apparently I’m doing it wrong."-Bella (Eclipse) "What is a valid reason for someone to love someone else? Since apparently I’m doing it wrong."-Bella (Eclipse) ...
So, Eclipse is finally here, eh? :D What.a.relief. I was thought that it will gonna be stuck in Jakarta again like New Moon. It was sooooooo sucks-that New Moon being stuck in Jakarta. Beyond sucks. I was sooooo mad at 21 cinema that time. It's like, "Hello, Is the audience only Jakarta citizen? It's not, is it? The other Twihards from other city...
"Now I know you are not a fairytale and dreams were meant for sleeping." –Gabriella (High School Musical) #disneyquote ...
another love story
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Faith, Trust, and Other Similar Things I Should Have In You
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Judulnya panjang, wew. (._.)Ehm, nggak tahu juga harus mulai topik ini darimana. Err, started at the day I caught you. Being that friendly and unmistakable close to her. You know exactly who this her is. Actually, not just her, but, them. Haha. Ahh, I always feel a bit ridiculous and odd and anxious at the same time as I feel jealous. Well, skip...
Stres. Pusing. Sedih. Campuran ketiga emosi itu, apa namanya. Entah siapa yang harus kukasihani, mamaku, atau adekku. Semuanya kasihan. Minggu belakangan ini, bukan, bulan ini, bisa dibilang bulan dimana semua anak yang udah di kelas akhir SD atau SMP-beserta orang tua nya-berlomba-lomba cari sekolah di jenjang yang lebih tinggi. Enak bagi mereka yang udah dapet NEM bagus, tapi yang nggak? Gimana? Adekku salah...
Yak, H-4 hari MPDK. Well, buat yang nggak tau apa itu MPDK. MPDK itu singkatan dari Malam Pentas dan Kesenian (bener nggak yaa --"). Semacam prom night anak2 kelas 12. Yaah, meskipun prom night ini sebenernya acaranya anak kelas 12, tapi nggak tau kenapa anak2 kelas bawahnya (baca: aku) ikut2an heboh nyiapin. Padahal bisa aja yang kelas 12 nggak seheboh gitu juga. --" Heheh.....
Hell, yeah, we've been through 8 months. It's not an easy thing to.....achieve? For us. At least, for me. Mungkin baru 8 bulan, tapi rasanya uda kaya satu tahun. --". Ya, I know, it's lebay. Tapi semua yang udah aku lalui, kami lalui, bikin semuanya berasa kaya satu tahun. Aku tahu seberapa susah apa yang aku dan dia hadapi ini, seberapa limit yang...
Of course. It has never been meant anything. I should have known. It is always been me who is hoped too much and thought about something that I know wouldn't have become real. ...
I even barely can understand. What do all of these mean to me? He. Someone who had thrown me away a years ago, now, he came like there's nothing to be sorry about. So, What am I gonna do now? I know what he's like. And I know what thing I should do. But, maybe, there are things that can be more messed...
With you... With you... I wish we had another time I wish we had another place... Now Romeo & Juliet, Bet they never felt the way we felt Bonnie & Clyde, Never had to hide like, We do We do You and I both know it can't work, It's all fun and games till, someone gets hurt, And I don't, I won't let...
Kemarin pagi aku merenung sebelum berangkat sekolah. Well, bukan merenung sih, lebih tepatnya terbersit yah.. Kemarin, lagi stres2 nya remidi UAS (aku remidi fis-bio ;_;), tiba2 pagi2 pas mau sekolah, aku keinget jaman SMP ku. Aku inget banget gimana aku dulu anak guru penjas yang rajin, yang dari luar keliatan sangat sempurna. Semua seperti menggeantungkan harapan padaku. Dan akhirnya tiba saatnya dimana masa...
Habis baca postingan-bersambung nya ms. tyka tentang cinta itu butuh alasan yang berdasarkan pada kejadian di kelas saya, XI IPA 3, waktu mam nya lagi ngajar. Menurut mam nya-yang waktu itu bener2 ngga mau kalah debat- (-.-) cinta itu harus punya alasan. Supaya, si perasaan naksir itu worthed dinaikin pangkatnya jadi cinta, dan, supaya kita nggak terjebak sama yang namanya cinta buta alias...
"We're all damaged in our own way. Nobody's perfect. I think we are all somewhat screwy, every single one of us." -Johnny Depp- "We're all damaged in our own way. Nobody's perfect. I think we are all somewhat screwy, every single one of us." -Johnny Depp- ...
Like I said before, it truly is happened. Every time the day has dawned, the magic on the night, will always be gone. Everything's perfect yesterday night, everything's just too great to be true. And this morning, when I woke up, I've lost all the magic. Everything's turned to be like usual. We're on a fighting again. Ugh. Well, yeah, when cinderella lost...
Tonight was reeeaaaallly a night. We went out for a date, again, at last. :D It's been a whhiiiile since our last date. It's like.....months ago. --" We've always been fighting, quarreling, teasing aallll the time recently. Says, we do need a break, don't we? I'm sooooooo happy. >< Ugh, it do sounds cheesy, I know. But, what else? I am really truly...
Dua minggu ini, meskipun lagi UAS, aku tetep dateng kaya biasa, pagi, jam setengah tujuh. Biasanya aku langsung ke perpus kalo udah dateng pagi gitu, secara aku, kelas sebelas, UAS nya baru jam sepuluh. Tapi, seminggu terakhir ini, perpus baru buka kalo yang kelas sepuluh uda masuk. Kemarin2 sih rajin aku nunggu di depan perpus, lama2 kok males juga. --a Jadilah aku langsung...
Aaaah...They're always so lovely together... :) ♥ them :* ...
Turnaround... Every now and then I get a little bit lonely, and you're never coming round... Turnaround... Every now and then I get a little bit tired, of listening to the sound of my tears... Turnaround... Every now and then I get a little bit nervous, that the best of all the years have gone by... Every now and then I get a...
Sebenernya sih belum selesei bener2 selesei. Tinggal besok penjaskes. Tapi ya penjaskes gitu lhooooo....hell-oooo...aku aja ngga ngerti mau belajar apa. HAHAHA. -o-Terserah penjaskes-nya aja lah. Anyway, aku bersyukur sih, UAS minggu ini bisa dibilang lancar. Well, oke, aku merasa (agak) gagal di fisika sama matematika, but, overall, just fine. ;) Tapi, selalu, dan selalu, tiap kali aku seneng di satu hal, hal lainnya...
"Menyadari hidup adalah anugerah sehingga kita hidup untuk memberi, yang akan mencerminkan kehidupan Allah dalam diri kita"-Rm. Paulus- "Menyadari hidup adalah anugerah sehingga kita hidup untuk memberi, yang akan mencerminkan kehidupan Allah dalam diri kita"-Rm. Paulus- ...
Aku nggak suka kamu deket sama orang lain, jelas itu. Aku minta kamu jauhin mereka, ya. Kamu bilang kamu butuh mereka, aku ngerti. Kamu bilang kamu juga butuh aku, baiklah. Kamu anggep aku ini apasih? Cuma pajangan ta? Yang bisa kamu sayang2 kalo kamu lagi pengen, kamu elus2 kalo lagi mood, kamu perhatiin kalo lagi seneng. Tapi kalo kamu butuh pajangan lain, ya...
Apa itu cinta, Jika artinya rasa sakit Apa itu cinta, Jika artinya kamu membagi cintamu Apa itu cinta, Jika artinya kamu merelakan cintamu dengan orang lain Apa itu cinta, Jika artinya kamu menangis tiap malam Apa itu cinta, Jika artinya tidak bisa hanya pada satu orang Apa itu cinta, Jika artinya dadamu sesak setiap kamu melihat dia bercanda dengan yang lain Apa itu...
I used to think I'm the only one you care about I used to think I'm the only one who be able to make you happy. I used to think I'm the only one who care so much about you I used to think I'm the only one who be able to make you laugh I used to think I'm the only one...
I woke up this morning feeling like hell. My eyes was swollen, my chest still hurt, and I still barely could breathe. I took up a shower, no changes, I ended up cry like a baby in my bathroom. I went back to my room, changed with my uniform, and cried again. It's not like I didn't enough crying last night. SIGH. Why do...
Teman dekat. Teman curhat. TTM. 'Adek'. Apapun lah. Satu: Other girls. I don't know what to do, what to tell. Only me who understand my feeling the best. Sampai kapan trauma ini akan hilang, aku nggak tahu. Bukan aku mau menyimpannya. Hell-o, siapa juga yang mau trauma, nggak ada kan? Hei kamu, bisa kan bantu menyembuhkan, bukan memperparah? ...
Aku buka facebook ku pagi ini. Di halaman home, ada list birthday event. Siapa aja yang ulang tahun minggu ini. Di list agak paling bawaah...ada nama anak itu. Ulang tahunnya hari kamis. Deg! Darimana perasaan kaya gitu muncul, aku nggak tau. Rasanya campur2. Deg2an, takut, segalanya. Tanganku pun jadi dingin. Apa yang aku takutkan? I'm wondering...what he will give to her. There's no...
"Thingsmayinfluencepeopletochangebutitdoesn’tforcethem. Theychoseto."-TLS- "Thingsmayinfluencepeopletochangebutitdoesn’tforcethem. Theychoseto."-TLS- ...
"Themindrecognizewhattheheartistryingtodeny" -TLS- "Themindrecognizewhattheheartistryingtodeny" -TLS- ...
Mendengarlah untuk Didengarkan Menurutlah untuk Diturut Mengertilah untuk Dimengerti Hormatilah untuk Dihormati Pahamilah untuk Dipahami Memaafkan untuk Dimaafkan Karena semua yang ada di dunia ini punya efek timbal balik. Kalo kamu mau didengarkan, dipahami, dimengerti orang lain, lakukan hal itu dulu kepada mereka. Jangan menuntut orang untuk mengerti kamu, tapi coba kamu mengerti mereka supaya kamu dimengerti. Itu sudah hukum alam. ...
Yes, I tried to talk this evening, with some little quarreling though. And....it was not succeed, but...it was not a failure either. It was not a mistake --> finally, I can say what was in my head these past couple days. I can tell him all of my worries, my fears, my wants, my feelings. I can get to know him better, knowing...
Enough of all these silence. I really need to talk. We need to talk. We can't keep act like there's nothing going on between us; like we're just fine; like we're just as happy as usual; 'cause I told you, we're not. There clearly is something. Something that for months we pretend there's not.Come on, you said that you're a grown-up. Then please, act...
Please, lend me something to hold on. I barely able to stand still. Everything's spinning around me. My heart's beating hardly. I barely able to breathe. It's aching again. But my tears won't running again this time. Ever. I barely can express my feeling these time lately. It has hurt too much. Help me. It's hard. ...
Pernahkah kamu merasakan perasaan ini? Terlalu sedihnya perasaanmu sehingga kamu tak mampu lagi merasakan apapun. Semuanya mati rasa. Semuanya abu-abu. Aku sedang berada dalam fase itu. Aku tidak merasakan apa-apa. Aku tidak bisa merasakan apa-apa. Aku mungkin tertawa, tapi hatiku tidak. Aku mungkin tersenyum, tapi hatiku tidak. Aku sedih, tapi hatiku tidak sakit. Aku sakit, tapi aku bisa tidak menangis. Air mataku tidak...
Akhirnya aku bisa bilang semuanya. Semua yang aku nggak suka, apa yang bikin beberapa hari ini jadi kaya gini, apa yang aku mau. Rasanya lega. Tapi keadaanku sekarang nggak jauh beda. Semuanya masih kelihatan abu-abu. Sekarang sepertinya masalahnya lain lagi, ya. *SIGH* Udahlah, aku biarin kamu diem selama yang kamu mau aja. There's no point talking it. Just so you know, I'm still...
Good night fellas. Here I am again. In my worst condition, need something to release my temper. Sooo I end up here. Before I close my day today. It's almost midnight! I am in a quarreling with my boyfriend. Again. I don't know how I could do this. We made up in the afternoon, then got another quarreling in the evening. How could...
I found the pieces in my hand They were always there It just took some time for me to understand You gave me words I just can't say So if nothing else I'll just hold on while you drift away Cause everything you wanted me to hide Is everything that makes me feel alive REFF : The cities grow The rivers flow Where...
I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face And it never feels out of place And you're still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace I wonder how bad that tastes When you see my face hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you walk my way hope it gives you hell Hope it...
