Hmmm. It's been a while, huh?
It's already 2011 and I haven't written anything down yet. Don't be disappointed yet! I have something to share. Sadly, this is nothing good. It's a piece of my crap.

You, came back. Not in the way I want it. You, came, virtually. And just when I was thinking of you all day, these days. Just when I opened 'the story'. It shocked me. I cried. Really. When I knew that it was you, who chat me. It's like, "Oh my God! What's this all about?"

We talked. Like nothing ever happened before. Like we were a totally old good friends who haven't seen each other for a, really, long time. We talked about something common. And then it's me who ruined everything. But I can't keep it for another three years. I asked, about the truth. About everything that happened. I want to know the truth, the real truth. I've been living in a confusion craving for your ever-lasting-existence.

You gave me them. The truths. I cried. A lot. My heart hurt. A lot. Again. A lot.
You said, "sorry".
And then it's me who ruined everything again for saying something pointless. Then came the time you said, "just forget it". That's when I knew, that, my time had been up. The time when you loved me. It's all over and nothing more. It's my fault. If only I hold on you for a little longer. Now, it's all too late.

Thank you. And. Sorry.

Really wish you happy with everything you have now.

Yes, you can say that you are over him, you can say you are falling with other guy, you can say everything just to make your heart does not feel the pain he made for you, just so you can go back thinking about him. Again. And never ever over.

Just make sure, you are not like that, mate. I am all happy for you if you really are over him.  Wish you all the best always.

Me and Kikik :))

Things I bought :)

Cinemagz "HP 7 Part 1" edition - Bonuses: "Sorcerer" statue, "Dark Mark" tattoo, Poster, Collection Cards, Bookmark

"Ingat Bio" Poster, Rangkuman Biologi, CD Interaktif

I'M STRESSED OUT. HELP! Like, REALLY.

As the entrance tests of university comes closer, my mind gets more urrrgh. I don't even know how to describe this condition with an exact term of words. The most thing I know that I am scared. Scared of not being accepted in the medical university of Indonesia University.


Medical Faculty.
University of Indonesia.
That's my dream. My long-life dream. Goal, aim, purpose, whatever.

I'm just wondering if I am able to gain that dream. Since the results of SNMPTN my try out are always not so good. Far from all of my expectations. It makes me a little bit sad.

Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not there
I was playing back a thousand memories baby
Thinkin bout everything we've been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you

Come back come back come back to me like
You would you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside til I came out
Come back come back come back to me like
You could you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we can work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
Cause nothing like this ever happened to them
Now I'm pacing down the hall
Chasing down the street
Flashback to a night when you said to me
Nothing's gonna change not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose

Come back come back come back to me like
You would you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside til I came out
Come back come back come back to me like
You could you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we can work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

If you're out there, if you somewhere, if you're moving on
I'd be waiting for you ever since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just wanna see you back at my front door
And I'd say

Come back come back come back to me like
You would before you said it's not that easy
Before the fight before I left you out
But I'd take it all back now

Come back come back come back to me like
You would you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside til I came out
Come back come back come back to me like
You could you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

You'd be here by now
It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby what about the ending
Oh I thought you'd be here by now oh ohh ohh ohh
That you'd be here by now

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

I sneak in and see your friends, and her snotty little family
All dressed in pastel
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid, somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry

This is surely not what you thought it would be
I lose myself in a daydream where I stand and say

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

Fond gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play a song that sounds like a death march
And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be

She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me, you wish it was me
Don’t you?

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

So don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
Your time is running out and they said speak now

I hear the preacher say speak now or forever hold your peace
There’s the silence, there’s my last chance
I stand up with shaky hands, all eyes on me
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I’m only looking at you

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

And you say lets run away now
I’ll meet when I’m out of my tux at the backdoor
Baby I didn’t say my vows, so glad you were around
When they said ‘Speak now’