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Menurutlah untuk Diturut
Mengertilah untuk Dimengerti
Hormatilah untuk Dihormati
Pahamilah untuk Dipahami
Memaafkan untuk Dimaafkan
Karena semua yang ada di dunia ini punya efek timbal balik. Kalo kamu mau didengarkan, dipahami, dimengerti orang lain, lakukan hal itu dulu kepada mereka. Jangan menuntut orang untuk mengerti kamu, tapi coba kamu mengerti mereka supaya kamu dimengerti. Itu sudah hukum alam.
Yes, I tried to talk this evening, with some little quarreling though. And....it was not succeed, but...it was not a failure either.
It was not a mistake --> finally, I can say what was in my head these past couple days. I can tell him all of my worries, my fears, my wants, my feelings. I can get to know him better, knowing what has had troubled him so much lately.
It was not a success --> we end up with no conclusion, no solution for the real problem. Everything is just the same again. The whole conversation just make me realize, that there's obviously nothing left to talk about. I should have realized it in the first place. That problem, is unsolvable, the result is just going to be the same. No matter how many times we're going to talk about it. There's no way to figure it out.
Well, despite of those above, I am relieved.
Finally, we can communicate as well as usual. No weird feelings, no "just forget it" thing, just the usual, the normal one. I think, this 'miss each other' feeling which did it. Well, thank you. I can sleep tight tonight
Enough of all these silence. I really need to talk. We need to talk.
We can't keep act like there's nothing going on between us; like we're just fine; like we're just as happy as usual; 'cause I told you, we're not.
There clearly is something. Something that for months we pretend there's not.
Come on, you said that you're a grown-up. Then please, act mature. Talk to me. Talk about our problem. Let's fix this. Not to try buried them away unsolved.
And, please, when we talk, please, for God's sake, don't be so self-concerned, listen to the others; do not find the one who's wrong and the one who's right, there's no point in it; we are finding the solution.
I'm fed up with those.
Please, lend me something to hold on.
I barely able to stand still. Everything's spinning around me.
My heart's beating hardly. I barely able to breathe.
It's aching again.
But my tears won't running again this time. Ever.
I barely can express my feeling these time lately. It has hurt too much.
Help me. It's hard.
I barely able to stand still. Everything's spinning around me.
My heart's beating hardly. I barely able to breathe.
It's aching again.
But my tears won't running again this time. Ever.
I barely can express my feeling these time lately. It has hurt too much.
Help me. It's hard.
Pernahkah kamu merasakan perasaan ini?
Terlalu sedihnya perasaanmu sehingga kamu tak mampu lagi merasakan apapun. Semuanya mati rasa. Semuanya abu-abu.
Aku sedang berada dalam fase itu.
Aku tidak merasakan apa-apa. Aku tidak bisa merasakan apa-apa.
Aku mungkin tertawa, tapi hatiku tidak.
Aku mungkin tersenyum, tapi hatiku tidak.
Aku sedih, tapi hatiku tidak sakit.
Aku sakit, tapi aku bisa tidak menangis.
Air mataku tidak mau keluar lagi.
Mati rasa.
Terlalu sedihnya perasaanmu sehingga kamu tak mampu lagi merasakan apapun. Semuanya mati rasa. Semuanya abu-abu.
Aku sedang berada dalam fase itu.
Aku tidak merasakan apa-apa. Aku tidak bisa merasakan apa-apa.
Aku mungkin tertawa, tapi hatiku tidak.
Aku mungkin tersenyum, tapi hatiku tidak.
Aku sedih, tapi hatiku tidak sakit.
Aku sakit, tapi aku bisa tidak menangis.
Air mataku tidak mau keluar lagi.
Mati rasa.
Akhirnya aku bisa bilang semuanya. Semua yang aku nggak suka, apa yang bikin beberapa hari ini jadi kaya gini, apa yang aku mau. Rasanya lega.
Tapi keadaanku sekarang nggak jauh beda. Semuanya masih kelihatan abu-abu. Sekarang sepertinya masalahnya lain lagi, ya.
*SIGH*
Udahlah, aku biarin kamu diem selama yang kamu mau aja. There's no point talking it.
Just so you know, I'm still here.
Waiting. :)
Tapi keadaanku sekarang nggak jauh beda. Semuanya masih kelihatan abu-abu. Sekarang sepertinya masalahnya lain lagi, ya.
*SIGH*
Udahlah, aku biarin kamu diem selama yang kamu mau aja. There's no point talking it.
Just so you know, I'm still here.
Waiting. :)
Good night fellas. Here I am again. In my worst condition, need something to release my temper. Sooo I end up here. Before I close my day today. It's almost midnight!
I am in a quarreling with my boyfriend. Again. I don't know how I could do this. We made up in the afternoon, then got another quarreling in the evening. How could I be able to stand all of these?
Urrrrgh..........
So, here's the thing.
I do not believe my bf. At all.
Well, it's not because I won't. I can't. I haven't been able to trust another man after what that man did to me. It's just..real complicated and..hard. So that it pops another question, if I'm not ready yet to trust another man, why taking risk having a relationship?
What I do now, is just repeatedly hurt him.
*Big Sigh*
I need a lot of time to think.
One question if allowed : You want me to believe in you, but why do you always seems want to break my faith in you?
I am in a quarreling with my boyfriend. Again. I don't know how I could do this. We made up in the afternoon, then got another quarreling in the evening. How could I be able to stand all of these?
Urrrrgh..........
So, here's the thing.
I do not believe my bf. At all.
Well, it's not because I won't. I can't. I haven't been able to trust another man after what that man did to me. It's just..real complicated and..hard. So that it pops another question, if I'm not ready yet to trust another man, why taking risk having a relationship?
What I do now, is just repeatedly hurt him.
*Big Sigh*
I need a lot of time to think.
One question if allowed : You want me to believe in you, but why do you always seems want to break my faith in you?
I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
REFF : The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
Still here
Seeing the ashes in my heart
The smile the widest
When I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I tried to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be
REFF
Maybe tonight
It's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today
It's gonna be okay
I will remember
I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered and I wanted you to come and make me whole
When I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
And you just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
The lights go out, the bridges burn
Once you're gone, you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say I'd be the one to runaway
But I'm still here
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
REFF : The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
Still here
Seeing the ashes in my heart
The smile the widest
When I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I tried to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be
REFF
Maybe tonight
It's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today
It's gonna be okay
I will remember
I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered and I wanted you to come and make me whole
When I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
And you just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
The lights go out, the bridges burn
Once you're gone, you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say I'd be the one to runaway
But I'm still here
