Have you ever thinking of goodbye? Separation? A long one? With the loved one?

For me, honestly, I never think about some kind of Long Distance Relationship. I used to not believe in it, in fact. I used to think that LDR is some kind of ridiculous. I mean, how can two person love each other but not being able to see each other everyday? That's like, insane. But, as I grow up, mature, be and commit in a  mature relationship, I start to see that LDR is one of the options I could possibly be in at any time as my boyfriend is a lot older than me and he is already getting into the real world, real job, so yeah, I can't continue on being unrealistic.

One year, is like a loooooooong time for a LDR-newbie like me. I get scared as hell. I cried a lot of time and still want to cry some of the time right now. I just....so afraid of so many things. It's not like I don't believe in my boyfriend, I love him and I believe in him 100%. It's just, my last relationship is just suck and didn't work and kinda traumatize. I just scared that it might be not working too this time. It's like, you know, gambling on, hanging on, keeping your hope on something you have bloody-hell-no-idea at all. I watched all of my friends' LDR and watched them failing..one by one...only few survived...it is enough to give you this scary picture of LDR.

It's only a few weeks left before he goes to the city he is placed for an one-year-ahead-internship. So my life these days, in my semester break holiday, just focusing on spending as much time as possible with him. As much fun as it is possible too.

Wish me luck, xoxo